Welcome to my life thus far with Tourette's Syndrome with all its ups, downs, and sideways moments.
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Showing posts with label CBIT. Show all posts
Sunday, August 2, 2015
Strategies for Tics: Non-Medication Interventions
NOTE: Below is a list of various strategies that help me when my tics are occurring more frequently. These strategies are things that personally help me as a person living with Tourette's. They are wroth a try, but I can't guarantee these things will work for you or help your tics calm down. I can tell you these things help to decrease my tics at times (not all the time, and they are not foolproof) but overall every person is different and something that helps one person might not help another. If your tics are getting to a point where they are difficult to live with or to control, the first thing I would recommend is seeing a neurologist. Your neurologist, psychologist, or psychiatrist should be your first line in treatment and suggesting interventions.
Saturday, February 21, 2015
CBIT for Tics (Part 2)
Okay, so I promised I would write more about my experience with CBIT. CBIT is not a cure for TS, but is has helped me manage my tics a lot better. I have far fewer days that end in exhaustion and frustration, and I have managed to get rid of a lot of my previous tics completely. Don't get me wrong, I still have plenty of tics, but I now have fewer tics and the tics I do have are less frequent, less severe. One thing that's helped a lot is having a therapist who is so understanding and who is willing to re-work the therapy based on what works for me and what doesn't. We've had to make a lot of adjustments to the original CBIT protocols because #1 paying attention to the premonitory urge for me makes my tics A LOT worse (and paying attention to the urge is supposed to be a big part of awareness training with CBIT). So we have had to get rid of that part competently, and also re-arrange a lot of other things as well. With a lot of tweaking though, we have found what works best for me! All and all CBIT has worked better and has improved my tics more than any medication i've been on and the best part is NO SIDE EFFECTS!
So, today when looking back at blog posts I came across a list of my tics that I wrote down back when I was in my Junior or Senior year of high school (about 3 years ago). What i'm going to do is i'm going to paste that list here and i'm going to cross out all the tics that I no longer have. Some of these tics have just gone away because of the fact that tics come and go, but others have directly gone away because of the work I have done through my CBIT therapy. So here we go! Let's see how many tic i've gotten rid of!
So, today when looking back at blog posts I came across a list of my tics that I wrote down back when I was in my Junior or Senior year of high school (about 3 years ago). What i'm going to do is i'm going to paste that list here and i'm going to cross out all the tics that I no longer have. Some of these tics have just gone away because of the fact that tics come and go, but others have directly gone away because of the work I have done through my CBIT therapy. So here we go! Let's see how many tic i've gotten rid of!
- Eye rolling to upper right corners
- Fast blinking
- Hard blinking/squinting
- Hard blink and hold eyes closed in a squint as hard as possible for 3 or 4 seconds
- Grimace with mouth combined with eye blink
- Pursing lips silently
Pursing lips to make a slight and quiet kissing soundLifting upper lipPouting lip- Slight raising of lips into fast smile
Sticking tongue out- Chomping teeth
Opening mouth really wide (looks like a silent scream)Twisting lips to the left or right side of face- Entire face squint (just-tasted-something-really-sour face)
- Slight neck bend to left or right side
- Neck turning which results in neck cracking
Violent head/neck jerking forward- Shaking head fast from side to side
Bending head backward- Shoulder shrugging, both at same time or one at a time
- Pulling shoulders inward toward sockets
- Cracking shoulders
- Jerking both arms fast outward in front of me
- Cracking elbows
- Stretching arms all the way straight in front of me slowly
Tilting head backward while taking in a sharp breath- Tightening muscles in neck
- Tightening muscles in arms
Arm contortions- Jerking both arms toward chest vertically pretty hard
Jerking right arm toward chest vertically pretty hardHitting chest pretty hard with right handHitting stomach very hard with right hand (sometimes so hard that I feel dizzy and start coughing and gagging as a result)Pushing hands against face really hardHitting inside of elbows with hands- Hitting things (chairs, laptops, desks, tables, anything in reach, etc.)
Hitting eyes/parts of face or head- Making fists with hands and clenching them
- Finger stretching and moving
- Bending hands at wrists fast
Extending middle fingerMaking guns out of my finger- Cracking knuckles
- Tightening all muscles in hands and fingers
- Tightening muscles in chest, throat and stomach so tight I am not able to breathe
Lurching neck forward- Tightening muscles in legs
Jerking legs outwardsStomping- Rolling ankles
- Standing up on tip toes
KickingDrumming on tablesKnee knocking- Separating toes
- Raising big toe
- Crossing over first two toes
Jerking entire upper body backwardFull-body jerking tics- Rolling neck
- Scratching entire body all over really fast
- Grabbing crotch area
Hitting back of neck and back with hands- Full-body muscle tightening, which causes me to slip down in my chair and hold the position
- Rubbing feet together in bed
Jerking body upward in bed and just jerking all over the place in bed (fish-out-of-water tic) …Oh gosh I haven’t even gotten to the vocal tics!!!Screeching soundForceful “Huh” or “Heh” soundBird-chirping sound- Whistling
- Loud sniffling
- Slurping sounds
Gasping- Taking in sharp breaths/breathing tics
- Clicking in back of throat
Loud high-pitched noisesHigh-pitched tea-kettle noiseHitting bottom of hands together forcefullyHitting feet together- Forceful coughing so hard that it makes the muscles in my back hurt and gagging as a result
- Clearing my throat
- Grunting noises
- Air swallowing
- Biting my lips
- Licking my lips
- Picking my lips
Sucking in the side of my lip to make a pucking sound- Hiccuping noises
- Squeaking noises
Wow! And if I add it up....drum roll please.....I have gotten rid of about about 36 tics!! Now that's not to say they'll never come back or start up again or become more active when I get stressed or am around others with TS, but in my normal everyday life I am living with 36 less tics! I'd say that's pretty darn good! The ones I am most happy i've gotten rid of are the ones that were painful such as hitting myself in the chest and stomach. I still have tics that get painful sometimes, but I have a lot less tics that cause me pain and they happen less frequently.
To be fair, I have added on some new tics since my Junior year of high school that are not on the original list such as nodding my head forwards, brilling (that's what I call at least, but it's when I make a sound like brrrr with my lips and also make a noise with my throat at the same time), a squeaking noise that I make when i'm also sniffing (my CBIT therapist and I call it the squeak-sniff), and some others, but all and all I am doing very well right now. I still have tics every day and they are still noticeable, but they are much more manageable and much less painful.
I am still continuing to work with my therapist on my tics in order to help them become even better than they are now hopefully. It's still a work in progress, but we have moved our appointments to be less frequent now that my tics are under better control and now that i'm more independent with doing my CBIT homework/ competing res ponces. I will continue to update on how it's going and if anything new happens with CBIT :)
To be fair, I have added on some new tics since my Junior year of high school that are not on the original list such as nodding my head forwards, brilling (that's what I call at least, but it's when I make a sound like brrrr with my lips and also make a noise with my throat at the same time), a squeaking noise that I make when i'm also sniffing (my CBIT therapist and I call it the squeak-sniff), and some others, but all and all I am doing very well right now. I still have tics every day and they are still noticeable, but they are much more manageable and much less painful.
I am still continuing to work with my therapist on my tics in order to help them become even better than they are now hopefully. It's still a work in progress, but we have moved our appointments to be less frequent now that my tics are under better control and now that i'm more independent with doing my CBIT homework/ competing res ponces. I will continue to update on how it's going and if anything new happens with CBIT :)
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Valentines day! :)
Happy Valentines day everyone! What are you doing to celebrate? I'll be spending valentines day with my amazing boy friend who accepts me, tics and all. Although I haven't been ticcing around him a lot (a combination of suppressing and the fact that my tics have decreased a lot because of CBIT), he knows I have tics and it doesn't change his opinion about me.
Yesterday he gave me an amazing compliment! I was telling him about volunteering with the kids at the hospital and how they seem to like me and he said "Of course they like you! You're so laid back and sweet. You're the kind of person who a child would naturally feel comfortable with and open up to". I so appreciated his compliment! It made me feel great and so special smile emoticon
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Thursday, December 25, 2014
Pre-Hanukkah Party Tics 2014
Well it's that time of year again that every ticcer seems to look forward to and dread at the same time, the holiday season. With all the commotion, excitement, preparation, and family, tics always seem to run rampant this time of year. Today is the day of my family's yearly Hanukkah party and my tics are getting pretty darn forceful.
After 5 months of CBIT treatment for my tics, my tics have been steadily decreeing, and i've started to get used to having less tics. However, coming home for winter break and having the holiday season has not been great for my tics. Being around my family members is very stressful for me (tic wise) and i'm sure those of you who have been following my blog for a while know why. For those of you who have not been following my blog, i'll just say this: I come from a family who values perfection and social status, and Tourette's doesn't really fit into that mold very well. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I really do enjoy being home and spending time with them, but it's very rough on my tics and anxiety.
Being in my home environment has quickly made my tics increase. When I saw my CBIT therapist last week, she immediately noticed how much I was ticcing and told me she hadn't seen my tic this much in months. We discussed new strategies to try to decrease my tics in the home environment, such as taking "tic breaks" where I excuse myself to go to the bathroom while i'm around my family and just trying to spend less time around my family members (spending time with them in 30 min increments). These strategies seem to be helping to some extent, but my tics are still much worse than they have been over the past few months. As soon as i'm able to escape to a place where I can let my tics out, I start having so many facial tics, vocal tics, head and neck tics, and even full body tics. The other day I spent a solid period of time parked in a parking garage kicking, vocal ticcing, and jerking my body so hard that I felt my brain rattling around in my skull and got pretty dizzy.
Right now i'm up in my room while my parents prepare for the party. I've been helping prepare for the party quite a bit, but I had to escape to my room to tic and also to avoid the onion cutting. When my mom cuts onions for the Latkes for this party, my sensory processing issues go into overdrive as soon as my eyes feel any small amount of onion. It feels as if the onions are going in through my eyes and are filling my entire head with this sour and tingling feeling. The feeling will last for hours after the onions have been cut. Even though i've been avoiding the downstairs as much as I can, I've still gotten a bit of the onion feeling in my eyes. It's not nearly as bad as last year, but it's definitely still contributing to my tics.
I'm having a lot of tics right now. I hope they calm down for the party, but I kind of doubt they will. Luckily one of my very good friends will be coming to the party. Having her there will help me feel better, and like the previous years i'll be able to come upstairs with her to let out my bigger tics.
Anyway, I will probably make a post after the party is over about how it went. Happy Holidays to everyone and good luck to everyone trying to manage the holidays with tics!
After 5 months of CBIT treatment for my tics, my tics have been steadily decreeing, and i've started to get used to having less tics. However, coming home for winter break and having the holiday season has not been great for my tics. Being around my family members is very stressful for me (tic wise) and i'm sure those of you who have been following my blog for a while know why. For those of you who have not been following my blog, i'll just say this: I come from a family who values perfection and social status, and Tourette's doesn't really fit into that mold very well. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I really do enjoy being home and spending time with them, but it's very rough on my tics and anxiety.
Being in my home environment has quickly made my tics increase. When I saw my CBIT therapist last week, she immediately noticed how much I was ticcing and told me she hadn't seen my tic this much in months. We discussed new strategies to try to decrease my tics in the home environment, such as taking "tic breaks" where I excuse myself to go to the bathroom while i'm around my family and just trying to spend less time around my family members (spending time with them in 30 min increments). These strategies seem to be helping to some extent, but my tics are still much worse than they have been over the past few months. As soon as i'm able to escape to a place where I can let my tics out, I start having so many facial tics, vocal tics, head and neck tics, and even full body tics. The other day I spent a solid period of time parked in a parking garage kicking, vocal ticcing, and jerking my body so hard that I felt my brain rattling around in my skull and got pretty dizzy.
Right now i'm up in my room while my parents prepare for the party. I've been helping prepare for the party quite a bit, but I had to escape to my room to tic and also to avoid the onion cutting. When my mom cuts onions for the Latkes for this party, my sensory processing issues go into overdrive as soon as my eyes feel any small amount of onion. It feels as if the onions are going in through my eyes and are filling my entire head with this sour and tingling feeling. The feeling will last for hours after the onions have been cut. Even though i've been avoiding the downstairs as much as I can, I've still gotten a bit of the onion feeling in my eyes. It's not nearly as bad as last year, but it's definitely still contributing to my tics.
I'm having a lot of tics right now. I hope they calm down for the party, but I kind of doubt they will. Luckily one of my very good friends will be coming to the party. Having her there will help me feel better, and like the previous years i'll be able to come upstairs with her to let out my bigger tics.
Anyway, I will probably make a post after the party is over about how it went. Happy Holidays to everyone and good luck to everyone trying to manage the holidays with tics!
Thursday, September 25, 2014
Talking at the Medical/Nursing School about Tourette's
Today was the day! I spoke on a panel with a neurologist and nurse to about 50 medical school students and nursing students! I was originally told there were going to be about 200-400 people there and was relieved when I got there to see there were only 50. The fact that there were less people made it easier and less stressful for me, but at the same time it would have been great if I could educated even more people. That's okay though, 50 people is a lot and educating people about Tourette's ins't simply a one day thing! I educate people on a regular basis!
Anyway, today I was excited to help future doctors and nurses understand more about Tourette's! I got tons of great questions and answered them as honestly as I could. I talked about my diagnosis process, CBIT, medication, how I tell my classes about my TS, my experience in school with TS, and more! One lady asked me if I could drive, and even though I told her I could, the neurologist wasn't so sure that I convinced her, lol.
Afterwards , an older man came up to me and told me that he enjoyed the talk, that he now knows TS is so much more than swearing which he didn't know before, that he thought I was really in control of my life, was doing great a great job dealing with living with Tourette's, and that he loves the way I live my life. That made my day!
At the end, my neurologists nurse told me that she thinks everyone really enjoyed having me there and that I was really helpful. I felt really confident on stage and like I could just be myself. I'm proud of myself for spreading awareness and talking openly and confidently about my Tourette's in front of such a large group. Hopefully I made a difference :)
Anyway, today I was excited to help future doctors and nurses understand more about Tourette's! I got tons of great questions and answered them as honestly as I could. I talked about my diagnosis process, CBIT, medication, how I tell my classes about my TS, my experience in school with TS, and more! One lady asked me if I could drive, and even though I told her I could, the neurologist wasn't so sure that I convinced her, lol.
Afterwards , an older man came up to me and told me that he enjoyed the talk, that he now knows TS is so much more than swearing which he didn't know before, that he thought I was really in control of my life, was doing great a great job dealing with living with Tourette's, and that he loves the way I live my life. That made my day!
At the end, my neurologists nurse told me that she thinks everyone really enjoyed having me there and that I was really helpful. I felt really confident on stage and like I could just be myself. I'm proud of myself for spreading awareness and talking openly and confidently about my Tourette's in front of such a large group. Hopefully I made a difference :)
Thursday, July 31, 2014
CBIT for Tics
Today was my first day meeting with the CBIT therapist I'm going to work with. My neurologist recommended I try CBIT for tics before trying a different medication. I don't know if it's going to help, but i'm sure hoping so! I can tell you one thing, it was so nice to not have to educate the therapist about TS like I usually have to do! She was teaching me new things instead of the other way around. She is very kind and I really like her and her approach. I'm cautiously hopeful! A reduction of my tics would be so nice :)
To learn more about CBIT, click here: http://www.tsa-usa.org/imaganw/CBIT_TSA_Brochure_English_web_version.pdf
An Update about CBIT and how it has affected my tics after 8 months of therapy (on and off) (this update is from April, 2015):
To learn more about CBIT, click here: http://www.tsa-usa.org/imaganw/CBIT_TSA_Brochure_English_web_version.pdf
An Update about CBIT and how it has affected my tics after 8 months of therapy (on and off) (this update is from April, 2015):
CBIT is not a cure for TS, but is has helped me manage my tics a lot better. I have far fewer days that end in exhaustion and frustration, and I have managed to get rid of a lot of my previous tics completely. Don't get me wrong, I still have plenty of tics, but I now have fewer tics and the tics I do have are less frequent, less severe. One thing that's helped a lot is having a therapist who is so understanding and who is willing to re-work the therapy based on what works for me and what doesn't. We've had to make a lot of adjustments to the original CBIT protocols because #1 paying attention to the premonitory urge for me makes my tics A LOT worse (and paying attention to the urge is supposed to be a big part of awareness training with CBIT). So we have had to get rid of that part competently, and also re-arrange a lot of other things as well. With a lot of tweaking though, we have found what works best for me! All and all CBIT has worked better and has improved my tics more than any medication i've been on and the best part is NO SIDE EFFECTS!
Now that's not to say some of the tics i've worked on with CBIT will never come back or start up again or become more active when I get stressed or am around others with TS, but in my normal everyday life I am living with a lot less tics! I'd say that's pretty darn good! The ones I am most happy i've targeted with therapy of are the ones that were painful such as hitting myself in the chest and stomach. I still have tics that get painful sometimes, but I have a lot less tics that cause me pain and they happen less frequently.
I still have tics every day and they are still noticeable, but they are much more manageable and much less painful.
I am still continuing to work with my therapist on my tics in order to help them become even better than they are now hopefully. It's still a work in progress, but we have moved our appointments to be less frequent now that my tics are under better control and now that i'm more independent with doing my CBIT homework/ competing responses.
I am still continuing to work with my therapist on my tics in order to help them become even better than they are now hopefully. It's still a work in progress, but we have moved our appointments to be less frequent now that my tics are under better control and now that i'm more independent with doing my CBIT homework/ competing responses.
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