My cousin is someone who I really care about not only because she is family and because I feel like I know at least some of what she is going through based on my own experiences with TS/OCD/Anxiety, but also because I know beneath all of the things she's had to deal with she is a good and strong person who just needs some help right now.
I often wonder what leads a person on their path of life? We were both born into such similar situations, such similar lives, and with such similar genetics and disorders. We both are the same age, both have TS/OCD/Anxiety, and both come from similar families. Why does she have to struggle so much and feel so hopeless, while I am able to attend a highly rigorous university and feel like I have so much to live for and so much to be hopeful about? Why do I feel like I am exactly where I want to be in life while she cannot get to a place where she feel this way?
I want her to know how much I care about her, although I am not sure that she knows this. I want to be able to reach out to her and help her even though my attempts to reach out to her in the past haven't really worked out. I wish I could be there for her and be a person she could talk to who understands some of the things she is going though. Someday maybe we will have this kind of relationship, but I really am not sure that will ever happen.
I just wish she could be in the place where I am now in my life. I wish she could feel the hope I feel and know that no matter what you have or what you have to do through on a daily basis with the cards you've been dealt, you can have a fantastic life and there is so much to be grateful for. I wish she could know happiness, success, and hope.
Once again please keep her in your thoughts and prayers. I would really appreciate it.
This is a picture of us together when we were little. We used to love to play Polly Pockets together. We both look so happy together in this picture. I wish things could have stayed this way. Who would have known things would be so different now?