Sunday, October 13, 2013

My Cousin Needs Your Thoughts and Prayers Right Now

Hey everyone. Please keep my cousin in your thoughts/prayers right now. She needs courage and strength right now as she is going through a very rough time and is in the hospital because of her Tourette's/OCD/Anxiety/Depression. She is going thorough a lot and while I do not know the specifics, I do know she is struggling. I'm worried about her and am keeping her in my thoughts and prayers right now and I am asking you to please do the same. I was just updated by my grandma that she is doing a bit better and is in a better emotional state now, but she is still in the hospital and is still going through a difficult time. My grandma says that we are lucky to have such a close and caring family during these difficult times. 

My cousin is someone who I really care about not only because she is family and because I feel like I know at least some of what she is going through based on my own experiences with TS/OCD/Anxiety, but also because I know beneath all of the things she's had to deal with she is a good and strong person who just needs some help right now. 

I often wonder what leads a person on their path of life? We were both born into such similar situations, such similar lives, and with such similar genetics and disorders. We both are the same age, both have TS/OCD/Anxiety, and both come from similar families. Why does she have to struggle so much and feel so hopeless, while I am able to attend a highly rigorous university and feel like I have so much to live for and so much to be hopeful about? Why do I feel like I am exactly where I want to be in life while she cannot get to a place where she feel this way? 

I want her to know how much I care about her, although I am not sure that she knows this. I want to be able to reach out to her and help her even though my attempts to reach out to her in the past haven't really worked out. I wish I could be there for her and be a person she could talk to who understands some of the things she is going though. Someday maybe we will have this kind of relationship, but I really am not sure that will ever happen.

I just wish she could be in the place where I am now in my life. I wish she could feel the hope I feel and know that no matter what you have or what you have to do through on a daily basis with the cards you've been dealt, you can have a fantastic life and there is so much to be grateful for. I wish she could know happiness, success, and hope.

Once again please keep her in your thoughts and prayers. I would really appreciate it.

This is a picture of us together when we were little. We used to love to play Polly Pockets together. We both look so happy together in this picture. I wish things could have stayed this way. Who would have known things would be so different now? 

1 comment:

  1. I'm definitely praying for both her and your family. Any one of those things is a lot to deal with on its own, let alone all of them at once.

    I hope you're not feeling guilty, however, when it comes to your place in this world. I firmly believe that God puts us where we are for a purpose. You're where you are now because He has a job for you to do in the place you are. Your job is different from hers, therefore, your lives are different.

    I'm not one of those people who just says, "If you have enough faith it will all go away." I believe God allows us to go through those tough times in order to bring us closer to Him. This is a tough time for your cousin, for your family, and for you. As hard as it is, try to remember that when this is all done, you (and hopefully others touched by it) will be closer to God because you'll have had to lean on Him. And I can tell you that through all the heartache I've ever experienced, the joy of knowing God more intimately was worth so much more than the pain that brought it. I'm sure you've read it before, but I'll leave you with one of my favorite verses during times of pain, Psalm 27:14. "Wait for the Lord. Be strong, and let your heart take courage. Yes, wait for the Lord." Keep us updated on you and your cousin!