Today I am sitting in my regular hang out place but there are a few new girls in the room who don't usually hang out here at this time. Of course I am ticcing like usual and every time I do my yelping vocal tic this girl is looking over at me and just staring. I am fed up with it. It's so rude to stare is such an obvious way. A part of me just wants to say "I have Tourette's. You can stop staring now." but right now I just don't feel like getting into it. I feel weakened from last night and not too confident right now. I guess I will just let her stare. I hate it when people stare at me when I'm ticcing, but that's life.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
So between yesterday and today I have had some frustrating times. Last night my brother used my OCD against me and I really really hate that. We had a fight over the TV. I wanted to watch TV since I had almost no homework and my brother thought I was playing it too loud. He told me if I didn't turn it off he would go in my room and bathroom and mess all my stuff up, in turn putting contaminated things on non-contaminated things and contaminating my entire room. Of course this would have just been more awful for me to bear, so I had no choice but to turn off the TV so he wouldn't contaminate my room. His exact words were "I don't care if you mess up my stuff, but you would care if I messed up your stuff because you have OCD". I hate it that he used my OCD against me and used it to get his way. I am worried he will do this in the future. If he does, I hate to say it, but he will win every time.